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Happy 20th BIG Day To MIIE!!!

2011-12-11T09:21:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to Shenice Siiner:)

let's see what happened today,i went work as per normal but today specially with makeup!
mistake-allow delete,void and charge wrong...anyway i keep looking my hp since morning if anyone send me a Birthday wish,i wonder why is it so important to me haha i'm such a attention seeker-_- morning jacelyn brought me Happy Birthday breakfast as we might not had other time to gather,i super in love with tomato bread,then help boss to give call..sometime i really thinks that i had to buck up my english,then free lunch from member,then after work go home to fetch my family wear nice nice to heading ECP for korean UFO steamboat is super nice but i get blame for eating rice-_- i don't really like bbq or steamboat i think i'm sick of them haha,but my parent and baby seem to enjoy them very much,it's happy to gather around and see everyone contented!!!then get free 4 dollor voucher for game station yet end up paying 6 more with nothing gain...baby brought a slipper for me even thought the auntie was a biytch!!! then we take taxi home...it's was a happy lucky happy day...

on the pervious night...meet baby after work for dinner at simpang bedok i still super in love with the mushroom steak then we cut cake that brought by daddy,ooh baby brought me a necklace but too bad it's too short but super exp la i rather wan a bunny!!!then he change to ear ring and peadant is nice somehow:)

Steamboating!!!

aren't we SWEET!!!

Baby Present!!!

Jaceyln Present

Daddy Present

My purple sport shoe

Did i mention i went explanat to watch christmas chooir for our colleage it's my first time with jaclyn it's NEW and i LIKE IT!!

Anyway my preset for myself is a new Forever 21 dress about 30+ hope to wear till new year
i really love this birthday ooh and dad almost score 4D as per normal-_-..
Thank 43 person to give me happy birthday wishes i'm very happy to receive so many haha LOve ya Good night!!

Starry Starry Night!

2011-11-28T05:28:00.000-08:00

Hi i'm feeling lonely!it been long that i blog..did i mention that i went universal studio with baby took alot of photo but most probably not post over here cause blogger seem to took years for uploading photo is such a fuss...and i think i'm fine with my new job just that i only work for 9hours sitting there answering phone and billing but i sleep as i work under the sun for 24 hours!perhaps i'm still not use to the early morning part-_- when can i stop care for life?i like it how it was now,even sometimes i feel lonely without friends and cried i miss my old pals who abandon me on the way of their life,i'm being replace every moment,sometime i asked myself don't they miss me?perhaps i'm just fail for being friend or maybe i just don't know how to express?i don't want my life only relaying on my bf who is the only one i could tell that how lonely i'm with out feeling gulity and i think he will be the only one who tell me i does matter and nothing can replace me...earning money with all my moment and sleep till the endless tomorrow,who can i tell that i don't know why all this happened to me with out defending for myself,when people who i famillar so well that i could guess their next thought but now i had no clue what they doing?i just keep repeat this again again,even thought how much i tell myself i won't do it again...you know i really miss you,could you keep it a secret?did you change or me?can we be as what we are yesterday once more?i'm sry i let you go but i think i'm too late...i afraid to be resonsible sigh~ for life whatever i love i hated it~

April Depart...

2011-09-05T08:07:00.000-07:00

Hi,i guess it been awhile that i really did blog-_- woah! am i lonely or what? baby sleeping next to me when he having off for the whole day?anyway April had departed to taiwan as she wish for long time ago,i guess no use of stopping anyone who had dreams... hmm many things happened my friends comes and goes as i predicated,no use of stopping them as they had no longer willing to stay in other they just don't need me any more and i had to know more people to know more things than forever stay in a circle,we can't change others we could only change our own mindset! ooh it been 6 MONTHS for my baby & I it's a wow even thought it's predicatable thought it's my first love lols,they say we are meant to be for eachother:)
okay back to topic,April flies i only get her msg when i start using whatapps can't believe nowadays technology is so OMG!!! just hope it's not going to increase my bills, I love massage they are just super awesome even thought they wasn't a cheap hobbies. when to malaysia with yuan li for thau auromatic thai massage but she is funny i guess it's her first time lols but it's super good when you come home falls staright asleep on bed till the next day for work...aww i missed it so much....ooh and i will be changing job again?yes with yuan li this time hope everything gone well,sometime i really hope i could take few days or weeks off and stay at home it's been months i couldn't feel that i been force to work...i had been working for 5-6 month n the office i love the job but if i continue the stress i dun think anyone could really understand that i'm out of breath soon~when will money just come to my wallet?that's all my short post!!!

Randomly....

2011-05-23T08:17:00.000-07:00

Hiie everyone:)

hearing qing ai de ni zhe me bu zai wo shen bian....

i wanna start gaining this habit to blog everyday i like looking about it when i'm in the future:) is this photo nice?i grab from some fb wedding studio haha this few weeks marriage,wedding,giving birth and babies is surrounded me due to my friend i then start thinking about it Reality mode of course,but it still so Far away from me ,all i know i wanted in the future i want be the most beautiful and happy bride in the world "I will slim down OKAY!!!" Be the Best wife to my future husband and Best mummy to my child,Seriously! but wait a second why do i still look so nice when i gonna be ppl wife after that-_-'so should slim now perhaps haha but i dun care i just wanna stick to my plan^^ this photo look so elegant and pure instead of those fake fake one sigh~looks as if they won't get affected even the world ending the next day,of course indeed i do know i'm too young to think about this,is stupid to get married when you can still enjoy freedom this and that,indeed like what others say when one romantic met a non is a No No sigh,when i looking Now he talking about future,sigh...i should really stop comparing us with others,i'm attach to him but i'm afraid i'm just too use to him scare that one day feeling fade either him or me,i'm too fragul him too sigh~but facing reality He Does, you know i just wanna be me like a kid like being pamper playing around instead of taking a cane asking me to think in other shoes,i feel upset already and i sick of thinking for others,holding too tight i feeling pain now i feel as if i'm forcing as if only i feeling it he dun even he mention.i dunno why because i care that why i feeling stressed,my work too sigh~everything GREAT seriously but coming in a price Huge price...where's my freedom?where's Me?

I feeling lonely today,guess not everyone will give you a chance say i miss you or i miss the times with you:(i dunno maybe she slept or perhaps she's angry that i didn't join her biggest day of her life?sometime i really wonder do i like her or angry with her?all my friend i like them but somehow we just stop continue in contacting sigh~

Expo Outing with JO-LIN:)

2011-05-16T20:52:00.000-07:00

hi everyone,promise myself to blog once i went out and come back with alot of photos:) having great day shopping with JOLIN this few days and somehow my skinny wallet getting even more slimer haha anyway on the

FIRST DAY she meet me out to buy her SHOE? ya her branded nike shoe to use for next day HIKING? anyway i'm those that prefer high heel so no comment...!st time when CATHAY O_-' yaya i admit i'm a country PUNK-KID okay! *lame* cause i always thought it was suppose to be a cinema and indeed nothing much going on there very Quiet...but wait...we saw a SALE going on there,so lucky...end up brought so a SHIFT & ENTER lamp,3 box of masks,2N sliming gel and ooh almost forgot i went daiso also haha brought my makeup spoonge,jolin was late that day yet no punishment WTF!!! (she always give me a forfit if i ever late but recently she's the one lol:) We ate the mutip-TAKOYAKI OMG 12 tako??? but since we are hungry it taste delicious hehehe^^ the conclusion:Happy Shopping,No Money,Nice Food:)

Mask for this few week till i got my PAY!!!

Face Shop my Favorite,followed by the Beauty Diary that i just brought then ETUDE:)

Horror Book Collection!!!
Believe me they are all SHORT & Sweet!!! If you like Chinese Horror Book it's a MUST TRY!!!btw i brought mine all in malaysia,can you imagin i had to carry all of them when i pass custom??

Hey! That's My Key!!!
i had to collect how many to complete a Set of keyboard???

okay following....
SECOND DAY:i think we when to ikea for robinson sale,this time is my decision:)
we always when there when we were in ITE Beauty course,Good Experience But Please Dun Rewind It!!! haha jk jk i miss giving ppl massage and do facial^^ Nothing much there except PEOPLE? so many ppl la~ we almost start a pillow fight but i'm not that childish to lost my image over PILLOW? but i still miss that $29 pillow,anyone want to buy for me?Please>_< zzz It's okay cause my New Up Coming Stylo Mellow Blue King Size Bed is coming SOON with my pillow haha but guess i had to spend another $$$$ on the bed sheet and room decoration lol:)
back to topic hmm we went to the malay sale brought food the head to bedok for Sharing Ban mian then when to get CD before we headed home...
In conclusion.Good Day For Food,Photo Taking But Not Shopping :)

Things that brought on 1st day!!!

once again Update-.-

2011-04-23T06:50:00.000-07:00

good night every one:)
shenice here again,somehow is really self talking session over here lol
okay i think i didn't mention that i change job once again due to qurraling with my friend?or my manager trainee? okay i'm just confuse that which is which,when playing we are friend but when working becoming mt then how about when telling secret?who are you?damn it i gaining weight again chey~having treatment for hair and masking for face:) feeling better when you smell good haha anyway i got an office job which is quite okay la even thought i have yet to get use of waking up early but since just need to walk around the office and facing computer so outer appearance is no important i wonder will i age fast if i continue hais....

this month i watch 2 movie the sanctum and scream 4 with baby:)
I WANT SHOPPING but no money sigh~
money money come my home!!!
i got what i wanted so much a job that get a normal pay and work at repeatedly if i know i could i could do office job i should get it sooner lo i really wonder why have i been waiting for ? fear really do make you lost confidece and retreat but i losing to urself is the worst loser!!!
okay that's all got to play viwawa with jolin now since someone accompanying me haha:) jia lai~

welcome 2011

2011-01-03T05:13:00.000-08:00

Happy Belated New Year!!!
i guess it's wasn't too late to say welcome 2011 and Sayonara 2010:)
This Year is Happiness come in a price...

1.. I passed my Beauty Therepy with GPA 3.6 toward 7 ♥ even thought i did hoping to get 4 but i didn't study very much for it and hardly make it for the attendance almost can't take exam >< (no matter what i should be happy at least i dun think this year been wasted like last 2 years...this is what i want for those days and i learn alot of interesting stuff...even thought i had no consideration to continue in beauty line -_-') 2.. things change in the past 2 months life getting harder and harder on me at work place,is either i'm too sick of facing our MTWs position which i dun get that for so many decarde i been survive in wars battles i really could tahan them.. Woman fuckU! or just like syndy said i'm too used being pamper?i never get ill treated this much before even it ever happened they mean well but people nowaday ORDER others what worst with politiesT_T' and i couldn't even get myself out of that fucking hell! in other hand i love the place i can't bare to leave my loves one too... most of them is nice but i hated to face fakers,i had to apologise to myself that as this is the last best chance to leave ,i dun wan myself to regret staying just because of love if there's fate there's will be chance... i need to face reality and real life even go as much to ask for leaving :( 3.had to decided which higher nitec i wanted to go before 10 jan mostly bishan i guess if i couldn't get in i think i will retake o'level i guess... i want to know my ability >< i know what i'm doing! even it took decade to future i'm willing even others say experience is better than cert but i want one just to make me die without regreting :)

ya as i mention everything comes in a price,now except of working all i could think about is work or people at there,i'm too used to there why can't they just be nicer,be true or why i couldn't find myself part of there,what & where i wanted to work?they just disgusted me you know...

they pretend,other treat it real,those that are useless had to be kickout cruelly being bad named,i find it meaningless to prove that i'm useful i rejecting deeply inside to work hard for people who take ur credit as their own and those that are blind...how fun could it get to work there when i had to be warned by everyone to becareful one another or showed that you are not a weak so that they dun push work on you!!! i dun know whether i willing to stay with all the criticize from the top (it seem rather harsh lol) '_'

anyway part of me want to see the world,earn more money prepare for future :) i might end up going oversea with my darling if i save enough money...hmm you know life is hard to predicate.

okay that's all about the unhappiness!

happy 2010

2010-12-11T10:20:00.000-08:00

a Great Happy Birthday to myself :)

it been a fun day from the beginning to the end untill nee mention that fucker...i dun know whether could i blame him,i just know that i feeling hurt every single time and for the same fucking reason-_-' it doesn't matter anymore i guess!

2010-09-16T22:56:00.000-07:00

do i look like prince??? i like being guy at some times =)

hihi it been long time since i post my last last last posts okay it's been a month zzz

i'm lazy to post but i did go on facebook everyday without fail hais~nothing much happened as i'm still alive except that i keep gaining weight!

things happen which i could still rmb,

1-i spent my 2 week vacation at my friend house end up what i gain was betrayed and only i think so...

2-work school work school work school this is how my life now....

3-i wanna go malaysia & buy the bobbi brown brush however i no money ahh~

4-keep run away from school cause i'm too lazy it;s forever thingy.

5-gana force by jolin go john little sale yesterday i want to but the cute pyjames too....

6-i finish my makeup test liao,fun i guess

7-project project project

8-i got my class photo this is the first time i brought any since primary school

9-life is lousy without money when you lack of time & freedom...

10-but at least my lappy is accompany me Y_(Y.Y)_Y

want take photo photo photo....want sing sing sing sing....want shop shop shop!!!!but only can study study study & work work work work

honestly i already dun know what is right or wrong since i been stuck in my position,this year i learn to not pity myself in what i'm and think that this is the correct way of independent as you know that wasn't what i really want but does it really matter as i dun suffer at my work place if i dun see him,and get money to buy whatever i wan instead if begging from parent-.- i love my makeup^^

i'm cuting my fringe.....

dye and prem when holiday start....

going try eyelashes extention.....

buy more makeup....

more clothes & high heel of course.... i will go plastic surgery if i'm rich hais!!

can't wait for new year to come:+)

and buying new contact len later.....going sleep now~before my miserable life start meow!

update outdated item

2010-08-03T23:40:00.000-07:00

hihi just want to updated what happened during this period of mia Lol-.-

i try marbling perb nail art on fake nail tip just now

hmm it's fun and easy but still messy no matter what it's my first time lo sigh~

went for supper with mum & nee yesterday night hais

i really gaining weight since cindy come back wtf

yesterday during school Force to stay by jolin to watch the so called fashion show

model from our class okay at least they done well better then the other class=)

yummy durian i want more!!!

been in love with monkey for times=)

supper with mum on the other day nice one

Kol shop

Loves my braclet =) blinkbling

New contact lens arrive=)

i thought it will delivered to the house but end up at the mailbox lol

open house for ite

help out in beauty lab sigh~

Challenger=)

normally i hated sashimi but this is alright cause they have sauce it make it not that worst

burgerking with jolin delicious

project to throw the egg from 6floor without breaking it

Favourite snow ice

breakfast with mum the day after ah gong birthday

can't really rmb was there someone when i take this photo??

my cousia

you know when we was singing birthday song so loud feel to embrasses and the worst thing i just follow they call my grandpa dad sia haha

hong ji dan

nail art force by mum to do for her sigh~

china palace hair do done by me=)

model:rong rong

我在想还在想

2010-07-15T10:21:00.000-07:00

Victory of shopping!!!

brought this top at bugis like it for awhile haven wear yet=)

love this top

i have 3 of the same kind but different color

first nail art on nail

first lesson on nail art

fun but stressful

i brought lots of makeup item from STAGE sale this time very worth it=)i was like spend more than 200+ on the item everything lo

don't know what to say sigh~ i want things to be nature to me does anyone understand the feeling?i been cycle around work study project shopping as well as earning money to enjoy my days=) happily enjoy shopping and sadly enjoying work as well...trying to get use to the school life still in holiday mood until now then will stop skipping school thought it rather boring as mostly project project project it's nothing that u really needed ur brain anyway so very boring btw got result today i got GPA 3.6... happy? nope i'm okay with the result i know not that bad that i would fail and i'm glad i score that as i thought i will get worst then this i make silly mistake i admit! no one happy for me anyway i don see the point of me for working hard all i know was that all of this is make sure i dun ruin the me that ppl abandon and i dun wan end up feeling miserable because others not helpping me.i think i really dun give a damn to what others say already thought it not that anynoe been saying something about me YET i love my life that it's gping but noone seem celebrate with me no matter what big thing going to happened...my friend they either blind by love or simply not interested worst still think this isn't good enough,i'm tired proving proving proving things that i know i did well if i try they just simply dun understand or satisfied with whatever i done.i dun know what i want anymore...like i always say if things needed to say by words they will never mean anything, i feel nothing about him now suddenly is it that i'm too tired for him to realise honestly is not like i have any chance he wasn't normal,i dun wan to love him more than i love myself cause honestly without him the world will still turn in fact without anyone of us it won't stop...i couldn't even think we will to be together lol sometime it's nice to just view dream from far just like a picture but when you get too close to reality it will always damage or torn the picture of perfection,i know he wasn't perfect but i rather be ignorance to it sigh~ he wasn't someone who know that well to judge...another problem i know i dun like him but it just that i had feeling for it is it because we are close?i know he probably think to much but u know even if i do he had his own problem that he had to solve it before anything just that he dun realize it...i know it very well i'm not pretty not slim not smart not well behave not rich not kind not nice ENOUGH and i know i try use makeup to be pretty,use diet to slim down thought none success,use study to make me smart,work hard to buy things i want,try to be presentable,not to let the demon come out....at least i try but it just don work lo what to do...i dun like to disappoint ppl to is not that i like myself this way but born to be like this isn't it,honestly i dun find it wrong to make urself look nice wearing makeup,go plastic surgery or more is kind of thing make you gain confidence toward ur life...if it just makeup that attact others it doesn't make sense at all,honestly i'm touch by the word that he say last yr till now even when we wasn't very close i saw sincere and truth in his eyes it's very funny for that i fall for him almost half year yet nothing happened between us and i am not upset about it just won't put too much hope in us because lot of things just dun seem right for us...

love story

2010-07-11T09:19:00.000-07:00

it's surely love story however it wasn't mine but i'm glad too anyway i wasn't a guy so it won't happened to me=) tell me why some ppl could talk about their private thingy so openly while others just like to keep it shut and they dun worry how others view them as evil villian as they just simply say about his plan on revenge...story 1-once upon a time...there was a quite nice guy i could say without knowing his evil side?anyway he was just telling me his story as we had nothing to do but i felt that actually he's quite pathertic haha does man really think that ALL woman felt or think the same?as i was saying he was like really love the girl as they was together 2yr then they break off recently he say that he really want to love her BUT no effort being done...i guess not all woman will really believe it ba?he finally had a chance to go out with her this time yet all he thinking is that he want to revenge cause the girl is playing hard to get.....when at the first place he was saying I NV FALL IN LOVE AGAIN-.- ya he could do that if he could control he hard however if he could really do that in the first place he won't suffer this much now...i still think there was high possibe for them to patch if he learn to treasure the girl in the way that both parties like it=)

story 2 been told by my friend anyway before this story even started i cry about it that day for NOTHING!!! let's just started the story,there was this guy i really doesn't get it woman wearing short or tube he will say they sluts or bitch yet those girl that he say he want their no. or pretty is none of the exception haha!!! the more you hate the more you notice and the more you love hais anyway all of this cause of his ex (tell me something why does ALL men linger to their ex its lame as they won't love u anymore and isn't it too sissy even girls don do that hais) so the story begin and end...all i felt was that it's man themself to blame of their lusts isn't it,buying thing or what woman never need to force and being with a girl that u already know that she s.u.c.k is ur fault too lastly STOP saying all woman was like this just because we wear short or dressup nicely is not like we could wear t shirt and jean everyday for any occasion we need to at least make ourself look presentable and we DON makeup to let ONLY man to rate us it's for ourself and everyone!!!cheer to confident u will never know how much i respected woman we could do whatever we want as long we try our best unlike MAN like him only gumble sigh !!!

if all u know is gumbling gumbling u r acting like a kid nothing more about it hais

random thoughts

2010-06-23T22:26:00.000-07:00

wonder did i think too much again.though ppl always mention that do what make u happy is the most important among everything else but whether it make me feel happy is still a maze.like i mention previously to have a goal of dream is good but make it realistic,felt that sometime we shouldn't be doing things that don't belong to us (living above what we was) there's so much different among one another from birth and so much kind of barriers stopping u from achieving what u really want it's really hard i could say.just by saying happiness is too profond cause honestly happiness is in different kind and shape! is it with mentally or physically?just be with ur love one will do or buying chanel,gucci,lv make u feel more happy? can we have both? will it ever lasted long especially being wit loved one? i really doesn't know whether i'm happy with my job or my course,it seem too tireding that i wanna giveup on everything however i know it would never work for the future.i thinking that MAYBE being doctor lawyer or something professional would be better but is it too late to even think about changing? i guess all i want was to be rich and do whatever i wan with my love one living proper lifestyle and also respectful job...is this too hard? however u doesn't need to be rich just to be happy but just don't expect too much lo isn't it? btw playing maple TOGETHER with priya yesterday haha as well as today..got to bath le tata^^

over makeup,syndy birthday & nightmare with priya

2010-06-22T11:17:00.000-07:00

i mention i chopped off my hair that day on facebook

actually only my fringe only la haha but it truthly cause me enough trouble-.-

when for photoshoot that day with jolin...i love how my hair was first time curly love it but hate the fringe i miss my old fringe sobsob anyway it's a disaster sigh the makeup was too over to me make me felt that i belong to some funeral or cementry where they will burn me together with another paper boy -.- i prefer innocent or day makeup then the sexy look it always look wrong on me thought they really try to make my face look slimer and the nose part...even now i look at the pic i will keep laughing myself look like evil woman in old movie lol-.- the worst part had yet to come zzz now then i notice posing is not easy (for me only) it f**king hard la all the facial expression and body langauge is like WTF i will know how to do it NATURALLY somemore zzz smile till can see ur teeth while making ur eyes BIG without looking fake-.- i think i look very fake in the end zzz he just think he is professional photographer enough but i'm not a PRO model okay never will be also so why so hard on me...dance somemore zzz i think i make it look like kungfu lol wtf no choice the % that i hit someone is higher than the % someone will dance with me zzz in conclusion NOTHING turn out right to me-.- yet i thought i wan it NATURAL sigh~ will try my best for my next one guess will be around age 21???

watch The Nightmare on erm street with priya

actually i not feeling well that day so my face very pale-.-

Happy 21th Birthday Syndy ^^

am i right on that my makeup skill fit me better-.-

at least here my fringe seem right LOL

this few day i dream of him zzz can't rmb the rest except for the first one,he dress in white look very gentle thought he is quite violent in real life and we almost kill eachother everyday zzz it weird for me cause i hardly dream of understandable dreams and not to say someone that i frond of-.-this few days i truthly think that he look very nice but the character not that bad but secret lo wat could i think more from a scopio sigh~ WHY do i always had to end up liking things that i say i won't like-.- now that finally 1 barriers is gone but i felt that we should just be friends like what we are lol rather than me making any regretable move cause he kinda hard to predicate...sometimes i feel that i know NUTS about guys especailly scopio haha i guess it's really me only one like to do things this way for e.g i like vintage and lolita but u will hard to see i really wear them and my all my close friends we don really meet all the times but we still the same as well as i like cute an innocent sweet voice girl but i will never try to change my self till like them,is not that i like myself any better but it just that i don think it nessersary and it won't be me anymore isn't it? i like being myself sometime very manly while sometime when i feel like it i could wear dress with nice makeup and so shopping that's me without getting bored of it ^^ this including that i like him but is fine that we just being who we are and have fun KILLing eachother SWEETLY as if zzz anyway time to go bed nightnight=) i'm hungry =(

random night random cold

2010-06-16T10:29:00.001-07:00

chopped my fringe off that day,it's a joke i hate ppl do things without heart...u know the hair dresser was like she know everything then just chopped it off without hearing what i really one lo thought she did make it look thicker but slightly too short and where's my side fringe i nv even say i wan it look natural lo btw it make me look very weird!!!i look like kid,look like my passport in primary school i don like it...i miss my old hair should done it myself *regretting* sigh~ what's done already done got to let it grow fast sobsob

cold cold cold weather haha hungry now can afford sleep slightly later cause work 3 2moro...actually nothing much happened this few day except syndy birthday will posted up soon or later-.- then is i watched the nightmare on erm street with priya on the same day quite nice movie but not much feeling for it cause i was quite sick that day that too much pills sleepy lol however still happy outing with priya kind of feeling bad for her cause i bring her round and round to search for syndy present and buy this buy that even not for her birthday somemore.Will do the memories card for her when she 21!!! so collecting pictures now haha=) i like different friend different way.priya is more toward simple and very convinence like fast food anywhere anytime haha then syndy will be resturant kind of food we spend lot's of money on outing and it do leave deep impression,jolin is the second kind barh but in school including first kind lol.rong xiu is more likely we know eachother quite a while but honestly didn't connect much like Sushi to me lol hmm April definetly will be shanghai dian xin No matter what i still love it everywhere everytime never sick of it haha. Nee will be home cook lo cause she is the closer distance and convinece too.no matter what i still love all of them la all food marh haha i love them the way they are even thought sometime something did happened but just enjoy what we have now isn't that great =)

i think i will like to spend my birthday with priya the most haha cause like it to be keep it simple thinking of this year birthday we go eat DUM-BU-RI just 2 of us must finish everything haha or maybe after watching movie something like that will be nice:) i'm not use to surprise cause of family cases we just simply celebrate and call that a day.syndy might think that i must be bored of celebrating this way but sometime like i use to told someone yes you could love another ppl by ur way but never expect her to definetly like the way to think she will like it cause you wasn't her and it's UR way NOT hers what u expect more? honestly last year i'm very glad what she done at ebis and malaysia kbbix but end up we didn't even finish the cake it is a waste of money i rather do things i like and spend it on things that share with my fren and family.maybe she just don get it.

somehow i really don dislike her but i found different idea and mindset from both of us which i don't use to notice is it that i change or maybe was her?i really don't know what was our relation now?

found that if all you know how to do is just complain complain complain you will never get the work done.i been trying my best but i really don know whether i reach the target or not? i like him but even knowing that is impossible i still love the way we contact is fun i know but whether it worth the hurt is still a mist? everything seem so simple yet so complicated! don judge ppl by book indeed truth enough time will prove everything as the days goes by that what i can only say now=) to all my friend i like the ways we are not could we just stay as it is without qurraling or leaving? could we just continue treasuring our friendship throughout everything had past don make memoried as only part of our past,make it as part of our future =) okay off to bed night night

Always in memories..R.I.P..Shenice wong sin er 1991

2010-06-10T21:20:00.000-07:00

meetup with en very early yawn-.-

both photo skill S.U.C.K seriously haha

New beloved BBT (milk tea actually)

is called KOI cause the pearl very Q

when you eat will hear Koi Koi sound haha

lame=.=

New foundation i brought good but like too white?

love it pinky

the day we go to be model for facial =)
after

Last Lunch at school

Rocking Camel^^

Slept over at friend house that day

love her antique table

allergy at MY ARM thought it don't seem like it -.-

finally free but not happy at all...definetly cause i'm seriously sick (sore throat+cold+fever+heaty) i'm almost dead lost all my conscious thank to the fried ebi i ate this 2 days even i already not feeling well the day before sigh~just can't stop from food temptation zzz i brought a nice dress yesterday love the special of it been finding like week for nice and not that common with fair budget saw one black with blue pattern lace dress at vivo "oops" is nice but quite common thought the price is like about $90-.- however the one i brought worth more than that price and nicer=) that shop had alot's of nice but weird dresses thought the shop outer appearance look very common and the venue is quite hard to notice so i'm very glad i notice it hehe. hmm actually it wasn't very long away from the previous post but few things did happened
1st-okay syndy had return from her holiday honestly i really try to get her to work back at our place miss the time sigh~ but due to her dreams she seem to be fucking stubborn about it i admit it annoy me alots cause it seem to make me swallow back my word (BE BRAVE TO PURSUE YOUR DREAM) What the hell did i say that to her and why do she take it so seriously to adverture the unknown future-.-since is unknow just like it be unknown la! she facing finacial problem and she know it very well herself very risky for her thought remaiding the same won't bring her any good lo but at least better than being broke when she is a big spender zzz don't know her la i don't care anymore!!

2nd my best darling came yesterday,miss her so much actually is she miss me la <---she say so herself wahaha even thought it just one day maybe only half we spend it happily chatting lame joke and eating at iluma she saw that idiot and had good comment about him unlike the other 2 sigh maybe they know him too well liao ba? but anyway me and en really had alot things the same taste thought this time her wearing is OMFG but no matter what i still love her =) her malaysia friend make me laugh out loud they are so pure and they should be cause still student ma like me also very PURE zzz i'm angel to priya lol nothing much to say about will be meeting her this monday if i get better sigh~more pic also=)

3rd(self talk again) pls ignore!
now in my mind keep appearing/hearing

aiya i don't know la.aiya i don't know la.aiya i don't know la.aiya i don't know la.aiya i don't know la.aiya i don't know la.

don't ask me.don't ask me.don't ask me.don't ask me.don't ask me.don't ask me.don't ask me.don't ask me.on't ask me.

you know i really like just this way,hope stay this way don't want change but like alot of things come out from the pandoran it's irritating how to say he really don't matter much to me cause i'm very busy with my own time schedule especailly now that i'm sick is more WORSE isn't it,i know we don't match from the top to the toe but i not like i thinking more than we are zzz it just purely interested only why does ppl had to think so much about it.it really very hard for one another to get along well,syndy saying that i should try accept group outing or gathering but i really love the way i'm now group thingy really don't suit me more or least,i prefer one to one connecting at least this didn't bother my circult to run.even thought she mention that none of the friend will follow me forever Yes i notice that all along but i don't get that why i had to have group outing had to do with my friend leaving me,is it that if i am with a group they won't leave me along? probably not i guess,YES sometime even i evny girls going out nicely in group and flawn this flawn that gossip this gossip that BUT let's just see how long they will last.there sure will be betrayer,snatcher,backstabber,hyprocite and all other weird character cause like my teacher say all girls are BITCH it just depend whether you start first or they...and do you really think you will love all your friend the same not even a little bit of bias at least i admit i can't i'm more soft hearted to cute girls xP however the most important is that it's really hard to find someone true that you can speak with,or even you can really entrust her not to break your heart,we can't torurate with every bad point that everyone had some even had very low on that.i really don't get what good will i get to had alot of FRIEND when none will help me when i need help?just because we want to have FUN that why we are together? (is that what you call TRUE FRIEND?) maybe that some ppl way of thinking but mine all along is that we don't really communicate offen but we can still chat happily like the past since we share alot's of happy memories even thought it just simply stay home movie time which i called it simple happiness but you know sometime the more simple it was it's more hard to forget cause you need to do the simple everyday isn't it=) i felt that i will know more about the person if just me and her it won't be hard to even talk about sensitive things and for me it better cause i will cherish the person more as she is the only one there for me=) that's the way i feel la but how you all thinks probably different?

Second School Trip "Spa botanica"

2010-05-24T23:27:00.000-07:00

while waiting for my photo to up as well as waiting for the food in cafe world to be prepare...might as well blog about spa tour at sentosa yesterday ,it was fun i guess we took alot of photos however the group we in don't allow us take lo anyway is okay la i guess-.- that place is very zen biological,everything all natural without chemical thought i spot O.P.I nail polish haha anyway after that we went to a hawaili spa tanning they seem just opened so actually quite small...but should be fine too barh cause it wasn't their main shop,this trip make me feel the importance of money sigh don't know why? Spa botanica is so high class such a relaxation cost $1000 per day omg some more min 2 daysT.T i WOULD like to go IF i can afford it haha but spa just don't affect me as much as food does Lol....

after the tour went back to vivo with jolin shopping for dresses (I love dresses) but don't wear it cause it too weird and hard to find a chance to wear it only for occational barh!still thinking which one i want to buy cause they wasn't cheap so only could buy after getting pay lo...first time go DAISO harbour front one (i know country pumkin ma-.-) i'm proud to be one okay,priya also another one haha if you could expect what life was it wouldn't be fun anymore right =) got to take pic with cat ears,so do jolin...hate to post photos very lack you know since this is the first time i blog with my beloved lappy wahaha my hair getting longer and longer is it nice?seem like lost of style but sometime when taking photo they behave very well and wavy wavy haha when exam end going to dye and cut fringe hehe!!!

untill now then i know that actually ip man was called that way cause everyone keep saying I.P Man that why all of us called it that way haha must correct that idiot who keep hit me say he is I.P MAN lol i still Huang Fei Hong leh anyway that my surname also,maybe that was the reason my kung fu so good sigh~ no choice born with it one wahahaha even thought i very happy play with him la but he really look retarded or maybe nicer childish cute like a kid? but now then i notice actually men is just appearance with boy inner maybe the brain never grow ba wahaha at least still woman are better=)

sigh thinking of stop spending so much but end up still have to spend on needed thingy zzz must control control ooh sindy going back malaysia already she say she will some back but her word couldn't believe AS she good at last minute changing her mindset-.- what so good about going back KL when you very broke?don't know her la this few days she very weird also i felt i don't know her anymore,even rong acted this way too,luckily that idiot wasn't acting this way too if not it really meaningless.you know sometime i'm thinking what the point of being good friend?

first they hurt you more than others will.second just because we are too close they seem to forgot my heart wasn't make of steel will still feel pain one as they being too straight forward.wasn't it that since you know her so long you should know how to not step on the wound place but they seem different sigh.others like steal your bf,betrayer,back stabber and hyprocrite lot's of them is black listed in my wanted book so not to worry as for those who do the crime must get them out of my sight not like my sis she will be so nice to forgive and get betray again. i'm also very nice okay however only at the forgive part but the "let's be friend again part" forget about it,you did it once what could make me think that you won't do it again?i guess even you can't swear upon not to repeat it lol...anyway i only met few this catalogue ppl LUCKILY but let's just admit it la you don't really need me and so am i, we all just need someone who we could really talk to and get happy that's all it was very simple at the beginning as easy as you do your job and i do mine while not stepping in one another tail untill jealsory and anger get in zzz if you could really think well you will find that only because you care that why you will waste your time getting angry or sad on them...back to topic in my case i cry that night because what they say make me feel very insecure make me think that i'm useless in what ever that i done however i didn't want to cry in front of them cause they will still insist the fact that they are right,i don't know whether i'm worst or better than others all i know is that every weekend i work untill very tired,i try my best to do things that i should do.i didn't had off day at all,all i did was just go out with friends after school and even that i feel happy about it althought i need to watch out of my spending. if you say i'm being irresponsible and useless i really feel upset as well as angry about it cause you wasn't me i really very sick and tired of handing alot's of things,even i too tired i know i couldn't afford to miss classes as well as not appearing at work cause will cause lack of money the next month...i am happy as who i am now but why are there things that make me feel disgusted blocking my way,if you think beauty therapy course are easy you are in big wrong or maybe half right for the not studying type,even worst we are in the exam timing now i feel very stressed though i did study,and all you pretend nv see anything the next morning,is that what a person who care for you will do?i think it more like what a stranger will do...never ask never say anything make me very disappointed and upset even i didn't say anything too,i could feel there's a big hole in the communicating it wasn't cause by distance it's more towards feelings you doesn't say anything much anymore your life is boring no makeup lot's free time sometime feel like asking is that what you really want? even though you hurt me this way i won't bare to tell you that you are throwing your life away now is not that you can't do anythings about it is just that maybe you already change when that time i told you so.or even maybe you are waiting for ppl to talk and care about you instead showing to others like what lot's of ppl did barh?feeling sad now thinking about the past we stick together everyday even off day but like you say one day we will had to seperate,do you feel happy about it?i don't cause i sick off knowing one well and let go even though i pursuing my future you could did that too wasn't it?we could still be like the past even we don't see eachother right?but it seem that either you just don't get it or don't care.

long long post -.- i'm busy sigh~

2010-05-18T07:37:00.000-07:00

firstly had to say this is my first shocking meal in my life O.O

we went to the most boring s.e.x talk ever in school -.-
slept half way through the session zzz

things that brought from malaysia

pedicure & manicure treatment

HAPPY MOTHER DAYS

brought Valo lappy omgosh
i'm so happy=)

Josephine wallet brought from mini toonslast time singapore flyer

New print took long times ago =)
with kacie,betty & jolin

allergy butterfly mark???
scratch by Joseph baby-.-
trip with jolin to malaysia^^

1st time take train back yay

at ecp with sindy and ah xiu=)

favorite snow ice

Today dinner KFC, i gain weight again

apple mix -.- still prefer carrot with suger

wong kok food hunt with jolin in malaysia

dinner with sindy after talking lappy that day

went tm for steak with jolin

delicious guei at toa pay yoh 3 for 1 dollar delicious^^

when for dim sum after work with sindy and ah xiu

yummy chicken !!!
secret recipe caramel cheese cake
delicious^^

btw is jolin treat cause i too broke to own one-.-

dinner that night with jolin

favorite ham and cheese pie kia

self content:
finish my pedi & mani practical exam already even massage one too only left with machine this thursday,mani & pedi theory,CSV & EFC barh! must jyjy quite tight up nowadays need to handed my diet (always goes wrong) my work (very tired) my studies (got to pass no matter what) my money (no matter how i work don't seem to show any different) my brain (keep thinking of him for what sigh~)
i guess the stress level arrange will be

1.studies
2.work
3.money
4.diet
5.my brain

i did took out times for relaxation like cartoon dvd, korea drama,sleeping time,shopping and last not to miss my gathering with friends. (but to sindy,ah xu and priya sorry i really had no time for everyone not even myself,i love to be with each other however only can wait for holiday cause my time really as tight as it could cause suffocating liao but still will find time to meet eachother =D)

what to say even my time was tight i'm actually felt happy that i'm doing things that is useful for my future and i will not regret it.i did grow up a lots through working and all sort of thingy and do things that i thought i would never dare to do,i'm happy i learn somethings everyday as well as depending on myself even it was very tiring but at least i won't need to beg for money and could buy things that i wan and like for myself especially makeup =)

for my brain one thing i could say is that it won't become a Fact no matter what,it was forbid i guess even it wasn't we also won't be able to connect,maybe like what the sex talk say it all happened just because of Oxycontin reaction that i will like him and Der?? that i will miss him blindly with all his bad point but Love is blind isn't it.i'm happy we just stay this way even i start to know his pattern better as days goes by but if one day he really had to leave it understood isn't it (we meet and we leave) somehow i really hard to even bring myself to ask/tell ppl that i like him (in this situation) i guess their reply would be no possible or what barh sigh~ what should i do?he seem really cute and sweet,like his idiotic face and character even his bad temper which always make me feel like killing him as well as his friendly or maybe playboy action -.- lastly men still suck as they will sigh~

every time when near that period of time i will get very hot temper and quarrel with everyone and unluckily it's on MOTHER DAY-.- at first i quarrel with cindy on her last day in our work place before i go about the table setting then mum call since we going to tm say she can't find something she say we don't go already cause i get frustrate talking on phone then i hang her phone and ignore all the call she make then at night fight and quarrel with my sis due to her doll before we slept.but at least everything end nicely cindy call to make peace after i cool down that night,brought mum flower on the way back cause i know no matter what let her cry on mother day not a right thingy and also a cute scene i met on the way out mrt zzz then for nee we just be the same like always quarrel then okay the next day sigh~ but i'm really smart enough to think of such a romantic ways to please mummy i might be a man next life.(in the end she really cry on that moment but happily take flower and keep smiling to show daddy wahaha-.-)

centipede incident
where-my working place
what-almost eat it OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG i won't forgive the person if i die of eating it, even i didn't i also will sue him WTF!!!
who-me and my colleague with centipede
why?-who knows it just get in to it zzz
how it happened-i almost finish the packet of cai fan then i saw this BLACK creature 0.0
you know how it settle he just simply nv charge the packet money !!!! i'm glad i didn't touch it feel like crying now!!!

the other green caterpillar incident
where-my house
what-almost ate it again however can't complain cause it's daddy who cook it-.-
why-guess the caterpillar too stubborn to be wash away or daddy nv clean properly
when-few months ago but will nv forget it!!!
who-me,dad and that fat green disgusting caterpillar
how-when eating veg soup right on the spoon looking at me -.- medium raw???
dad say it safe to it and give alot of excuse call me to forget about it and continue my meal as my goosebump stand going to vomit.

not to mention about my aunt worm soup as that shockingly when i already finish my soup going to scoop for the other one scoop in the pot a lot's of look alike white worm in the pot although she say is expensive herb but i guess i don't really suit upper class i prefer in the middle -.- other's small incident will be with ant's attacking zzz

nothing much watching tv next^^

Singapore Flyer plus plus

2010-04-21T06:55:00.000-07:00

a quote from a book

LLa's result

Favorite brand=)

New Bag yay!!!!

shiny texture

paraffin wax

gift from ms sally ^^

manicure

pedicure

sponge heart

facial procedure

reason of my fats-.-

beautiful night

i look totally gone that night=.=

pic with jolin!

actually this happened before school start thought i ALREADY post up-.-anyway that day we went Singapore Flyer to help put with massage at first quite regret that i promise since agree subconsciously but we really had lot's of fun with helping or playing the games there,it's some kind of fair for family reunion or gathering.i strong support family should often participle this kinda of fair to improve communication barriers as well as relationship if they had free times of course.Instead of saying help out i guess we spend most of our time playing and taking picture haha and unexpectedly we got tickets to ride the Flyer that they never mention at the beginnings,it's my first time so excite even after such a tiring days,free the balloon ceremony start when we can't bring them in the flyer-.- and guess what we saw........lot's of balloon at the counter checkpoint zzz its fun if you go once in awhile with your loves one cause it's very romantic thought you wasn't alone-.-i feel dizzy when i came out cause when on hyper mode it's bored to stuck at particular spot!after that i went to meet sindy at iluma can't rmb where did we go....school food is very Delicious which cause me gaining weight sigh a steamboat with sindy the other day is nice but we always stay less than 1hr -.- just know result for my sub section,score quite okay had to maintain or improve it, JYjy ~went shop shop with mummy that day since work start at 6pm brought CHARLES & KEITH bag,i'm too happy about it sorry for keep insist on the brand even thought it wasn't my first one but i really love it,like the elegant look on it hehehe mum fork in money this time =P brought face shop's mask on hydrating,i wanna go malaysia!!!

self note...
someone mention that why did i think pride and respect so importantly,i just feel that a human without pride is as good as animal.and those that don't gain respect from others sure had flaw thought they say no one is perfect but if that particular person gain none respect through out his life don't you think its very pathetic? to me i think that if i want to gain respect as well as proud of what i am so that i can continue improve myself in different area.and i defentily don't find any problem in my thinking.at least feel that it better than those who only think about them self even to the worst that they stab ppl in the back and still think great about them self when others totally disgust/hate about what he done and be a person that maybe only his mother will respect him.the person also mention about i don't that comment about others which this will lead to no improvement through out my life? what others ppl comment had to do with changes of my life,maybe but that only for those who don't had their own thinking,how many times i had to mention i'm alright with myself even thought i'm fat,ugly,not so smart,bad temper and more of this crap that if i really got to care what every others say i probably suicide by now...and i mention there I DON'T TAKE COMMENT FROM SOMEONE I DON'T KNOW CAUSE THEY KNOW NUTS ABOUT ME! i guess this particular person is either he doesn't know how to read Chinese or he thinks he know a lot's/too little about me-.-honestly i know him not that much neither nothing at all at least what evil things he had done in the past most of it heard before,i don't really like him but can't say i hate him in a way-.-everything that's come out from his mouth none of it is good except those that he use to flatterer,in one word everything not true and not nice just like the person himself haha,if he really bad in Chinese i guess he could die the next day...i'm getting more and more sarcastic as days goes by sigh wonder is it a good things?all my friends (who really knows me well of course) say that my choice was the right one and no matter what i think i satisfied with how's it going since i'm learning new things everyday is obviously better than last year even thought i might not had more fun but life as student surely win those that you work la.school are fine as long as everyone stay as it was just found that people really can't be judge by the base color,sometime ppl just don't try to forgive others even it's the lightest things they want to make a big out of it even thought those will make them self looking like a fool to others or perhaps they are just immature/childish,to them life was about fun but to ppl who are older they thinks life is all about future and the future start NOW.it's important for us to know what we really wants so that we could do the right decision the right things,one of my friends mention that life is about to achieve dreams but it really depend that whether your dreams always change all is always the same one,everyone had dreams and probably most of them had once the same one...but it obvious not everyone could reach their goal,no matter what it called dreams since it's rather hard to get,if you are willing to sacrifice or must be prepare for chance..as one of my teacher always say chance only go for ppl who had prepare, i guess it's okay for one to achieve what they want daringly if they could leave everything be hide....

update update

2010-04-07T01:08:00.000-07:00

i wasn't in a good mood this few days but it is getting better as days goes by,i try to be strong myself now that i had force to stop it make me feel tired all of the sudden,i know been worried too much about everything.To me it's nothing is more important than as long as i'm happy but now whether i'm happy i already find it difficult to tells myself,there's always something that prevent me from getting to my happiness!the problem is i really find it hard to get along with hypocrite DOG is it so hard to understand that they give me creep,all they know is shake their tails and bark idiotically and yet they want respect!how many times do i need to say respect need to be gain ??you dog should just die in the 18th level of hell....they say it's my fault that i get all this,ya right personal attack what !what do you think will benefit him more than getting rid of his hated?really feels like beating him up enough of DOG i really wonder is it that i missing Cindy or him??? probably both but anyway i had to give up on him cause that's the end of we can go.

pics talked!!!
went to malaysia again go for sushi king and newway singing buffert lesson,then as i mention chalet we played music chair not included me and also truth or dare after a whole section of eating yummy at least all the food and beers worth the price,daddy brithday we bring him to eat turtle meat soup delicious it bring back alot memories=)

that's it eating now love manga BLACK BIRD handsome character xP

btw almost forget i went to watch CLASH OF THE TITANS with PRIYA it's a nice shows exciting too haha love the horse!!! what a beauty (=.=' probably a male one haha)

Alice in the wonderland

2010-03-23T09:49:00.000-07:00

hello it's shenice again-.- actually more of siner since i'm back to more carefree now hehe watched alice in the wonderland with PRIYA last saturday,will be watching the clashes of the tites this sunday hehehe anyway i'm deeply in love with johnny depp once again so charming even thought jiro still come first since he already father of 2 kids and from this movie actually could see winkle--so called--> line of knowledge on his face but he still so gentle-man!the red big headed queen prove that ppl with big head doesn't mean they are smarted while white queen actually look older than her sis sigh~ but she was very comedy especially with her branded hand figures,not to be least that the cat was sooooooooo CUTE omg so sneaky too XDDDD therefore all i wanna to say is that johnny depp damn handsome sia -.-! honestly the movie was great,it make me realise that when we getting older we stand started to lose all the pure innocent thoughts that we had when we are young and also it give me more courage to dream about future.but i'm not happy with the ending if i was Alice (of course not possible) i will stay with mad hatter forever and ever and ever lead my beautiful life with weird thingy around me?!?i just think that she should fit in the environment which suit her most.

love cat nowadays x3 real life as well as fake one hais i know i took too much photo but please understand my whole holiday going to be ruin by all the working so it lead me too less fun x( anyway we planning to had a chalet before school reopen i'm going this time hope it's fun i guess~ i think i will buy the OPI nail polish on Alice in the wonderland barh i really like it alot thought it some sort too exp but should be fine if i take pay...

i think it's nice to love someone as well as be loved however sometime must rather think about the possibility for the person to love you than who should you love,honestly i really hate guy who think woman as object or toy,but the worst i ever heard as that the person like "pork chop" just because no one will snatch with him,although common sense seem right but it really stupid to think that there's any woman outside willing to belittle or rather mock this way!as i believe there's only lazy woman yet no ugly woman,and for man i think that woman play more part than them no matter nowadays or the past， it really disgusted me that he really never look in the mirror before he say,he simply just fright anyone on the street okay!it's easily to be a man but it's hard to be a gentleman and yet all man expect woman to behave like ladies with all the "MUST" ...what the hell! as i grow older my thought of man getting more and more omg is it that they use to be this way or is it that only nowadays?even princess story getting more and more reality guess once upon a time story been out for a long time not only we doesn't had blues eyes gold hair,we don't even speak their language -.- thought good man do exist like jiro or johnny depp and more =) btw how does success mean to you? to me i really feel that it's very important to manage your life,future and family properly to gain respect and pride,really envy those that had they life achieving what they want since doing what you feels right was the best of all,and of course achieving the impossible always make me more treasure on things i got on hand=) cheers for future night night sleeping soon~~~

S.H.E.E.V.I.L-another side of me

2010-03-18T23:45:00.000-07:00

called this another side of me hehe honestly just take for fun while playing with color platter haha named it S.H.E.E.V.I.L zzz is not that i hate my life now,i'm glad that my holiday start but my sotong side come out on the first day,i accidentally put my usb at the school com only rmb when i'm on bus so must specially thanks betty them for helping take back ;) if not there's goes my money ~$$$$$$~ we learning pedicure now had to buck up on my nail paint btw i'm very interested in nail polish! ANY GOOD NAIL POLISH INTRO?OR CHEAP ONE WITH NICE COLOR ONE? i seem to like OPI alice series so shiny but exp anyway depend ba honestly not so for that brand but for one nail polish? love the maple cerel on top hehe delicious! priya don't you ever hide things from me i will know!!!! okay almost off to work....tata

Random Post

2010-03-12T17:34:00.000-08:00

Wow my favorite ice =)

first experience with fish spa
ticklish~

we are doing mask that day hehe

therapist^-^

pastamiana yummy

again random photo for mum birthday

i feeling s.u.c.k.l.y now VERY!!! honestly i don't really need to feel anything cause i should had know this ending but again i jump in and let myself being dispose like a rubbish hopefully will get recycle.better than someone which i think forever can't be recycle cause it's a junk! lame-.- anyway i wasn't mad la just felt very stress up i really hate the way i'm now,i miss the carefree person that my friends love however something once they change it hard to change back and also my situation now don't allow survive with carefree attitude.honestly I hate ppl to disagree with me even know they had the choice to do that but you must understand they wasn't me and yes i shouldn't expect them to understand anything since they are outsider. i really do think of him not most of the day just bit as times passes cause all i could care off was what my plan for next ending up only free time was when i'm sleeping,i should feel better since god really love me as i feel so heart broken he put some handsome & gentle guy inside my dream instead of giving me a nightmare or some weird dream,mummy birthday last friday brought her back to my work place and the bill up to $120++ almost die of heart attack anyway since it's her birthday i guess no choice la,love my course it's fun but tough cause all the theory and project make me think that i'm almost dieing maybe because it's my choice that's why i don't feel that tired but 100% i could confirm it wasn't bimbo course since we had to learn more than what man do! thought some part of my soul feel that they like hair fashion hehe

I WILL SURVIVE!!!
THAT HOW IT WILL BE
HEHE

p/s:i love you god.....

Updated Exprience

2010-03-02T10:48:00.000-08:00

ingreatine that we need

Opening the "Come-With" can

blue berry can

Rinse it off in the sink

result of mix

put into small cup

Time to bake

Guinea pig

shape the cookie

Mickey shape hehe

Finally it turn out looking like a cookie xP

Th_wolf man

it's full moon that day

watch with sindy and rong

nail polish that i bought ^.^

this is what i done over the pass few days for LLA project on 6 hours journal writing,i serious pray that everything end soon i'm very unhappy about the scheduled of exam since everything that need prepare was so close to each other !!! first i wan to say i enjoy the muffin baking alot it was very fun thought there's A LOT unsupported friend around however i decided to continue my baking~ the movie was okay since it was watch after the baking i feel so tired and its the first time i almost slept in the cinema,love the part we cudding together haha cause the air con too cold it feel so good! the beauty fair honestly i regret i never bring money hate that it's so much before i get my pay,I'M FREAKY BROKE thought it wasn't bad thing too cause i might end up buying a lot of weird things in a rush sigh~i love the color of nail polish that i brought NICE one^.^ i gain weight again WTH anyway due to tired i just consume whatever was in front of me and didn't watch my meal!!! i had no time for myself not even a day,HOLIDAY pls come~ btw i got to highest for csv (smile*) it's the first time i got first except Chinese thought they say we should had score higher,i will jiayou !!!

everyone and every things getting more and more confusing,honestly all i did was just ignore and nothing that was as evil as what my friend things okay sometime i think that being too straight really wasn't good things unless the person really getting too irritating,if you are too straight with every things that you are meet it will turn out very nag plus irritating cause you are giving negative air everywhere,anyway we don't belong to anyone i guess we had the decision to choose who and what we want to be with,and of people doesn't want to be with you it will be there's somethings wrong with you at least that wat my CA always say!honestly i think all of us already tired must handed things like this every time maybe it's was good to forgive other so you won't be that tired barh,i think i already don't have much things on them however i just want to remain peace now and for all =)

I stupidly went to school at 8 when the class start at 9 no only that due to tiredness i slept when teacher massage me it was so embarrasses la but they never say much after that but i feel that it was very funny haha,btw i did say that i hate others to had their own life except the one they be with me cause it make memories so fake or should we say more unimportant, that's why i only LOVE to be with one friend so we could treasure each other however the world rotate with or without you which mean it's natural so we can't stop it,and till recently then i found that even one friend you must find someone who treat you as one,I MISS MY OLD ONE honestly I HATE YOUR CURSE WORK SO WELL PRIYA!!!!

Malaysia New Year Trip

2010-02-23T06:06:00.000-08:00

Charles & Keith Again-.-

Hate wearing watch Prefer this kind x3

Dessert attack with cindy ;)

x'mas Decoration -,-

guess what make everyone gather??

Gambling -.-

fish head curry (Delicious)

Meat carnivore

cam whoring xP

High heels ^^
----->mine
Nee----->
<-------Cindy always led to blister attack sighs woman-.-
Mummy with her sis@_@
copy cat !!!

En driving in her own car (envious)
never make her my driver forever haha

picture with nee while waiting for bus to malaysia
OMGosh i gain weigh bloody hell~

I had lot of things to do espectally School Project which due soon zzz

LLA Project
2 Csv Project
Efc Project

haven touch any of it yet sigh~ hope everything end nice and soon zzz i'm dieing soon hope the time could turn back before new year i had to improve in everything as they are damn serious on us somemore having problem with people sigh i wonder why do they had to give problem when we getting closer just stick to polite respecting manner wasn't it better? and what will benefit you to make more enermy rather than friend? sigh won't be going work this friday concerate on my project with my friend and finally we could have gathering with them for movie yay yay yay hope everything went well and also for the muffin/cookie/cake learning lesson too,as for my holiday already planned WORK TILL I DROP no choice my cousia wasn't free to come over and i rather die to baby sit her sibling they already give me the thought of NOT giving birth sigh~ and going to KL spending wasn't be allow as i had to study the next month zzz however working doesn't seem that bad i might be able to buy the solivet titus watch which probably cost a BIG boom to my wallet btw i'm happy with my collection of makeup now as i just refill the used one with my angpou money haha except i under estima the power of waterproof mascara it really hard to get off and now i look like panda WTF ooh i almost forget to mention one big news that i almost cry cause during practical my partner trim a 1/3 big hole on my eyebrow i feel more pathertic than pisses off anway i already decied to change partner as i had limit with my anger even if they are WOMAN since she DIDN't listen what i told i guess i had done my share...i know it might be my negetive thinking but honestly i really can't stand comment on me when they wasn't that good themself since i really didn't say how bad they look right!!!been naging naging naging about EVERYTHING can you imaging i already try to make it look acceptable
to make me AT LEAST feel better and what came out was "WA you look like shit"(with the zoom in face) and i was seriously thinking in my mind that i could be leading my simple life WITHOUT drawing that stupid eyebrow RETURN MY NATURAL EYEBROW !!!! even it wasn't the first time btw enny was the first to make a hole =.=now i understand why people want to dye or tatoo their eyebrow at least they won't feel so sad lo....and also after cut she laugh leh could you ever imagine i feel so pathertic as teacher say treat it as a mistake since what done already done ,really sometime ppl always talk without notice themself in the same situation ,she say others but she did worst then them ,i don't hate her but my face just don't feel like facing her i could just keep feeling the scene keep repeating themself even she say i could hit her or trim one hole one her,even thought she apologize to me...i just don't feel that i had to forget it you know, she could having up or down in a turn i really couldn't be borther to entertain anymore i'm very tired myself .what they say was right i had to finsh it once and for all~if ppl just want to stick to what they was i guess it wasn't our fault to just give them what they deserve to.if they want to continue talking meaning less things without thinking whether it hurt the other i guess toward them we doean't need to respect cause they won't know what was FEELING ...i'm try my best not to bring my anger out if not it will be very ugly for everything (for those already seen they should know what i capable in doing without heart) if you deserve it i won't even feel gulity or pain cause that what you DESERVE it!!!

end of my miserable story
and PRIYA you go DIE i hate you for cursing me then throw me to face them
you #$#$@#@$@%!#$%!@$%@$%&@$&@$@$@$@$%@$@$%@!!!!!

Happy New TiGer Year 2010

2010-02-13T18:50:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year
Ti-Ger 2010

My lovely Charles and Keith (favorite) Baggy x3

Kitty at my block deck hais

when waiting for bus with nee to go my Grand Parent House!

Cam-Taking While waiting......Boring hais

Delicious steamboat yesterday with family and priya

Delious supper with rong & cindy before she go malaysia

Manicure testing for pipi

Bling bling on lan yard?

Valentino Present From Lovely Abi Y.Y

Yummy food when reach granny house hais
and also dinner with sindy while dad cook

he was gone for good-.-honestly it make my mood sink to the bottom of the sea....as i promise to work just to get to see him during new year and yet this was the reputation that i get for wanting too much?love the photo that take using nee phone should i change to LG beauty??went to orchard and china town yeaterday to get my fake eyes lashes and nail art item some shop closed for new year but still glad manage to get what i want at the minimum price,it still as boring at granny house and also it doesn't seem to be that important for us to return anymore...will take more photo when i return from malaysia (wink*)

p/s that's all for today haha
gambling now (cindy forcing)sleep later muack ^0^

some personal test in school

2010-02-11T05:33:00.000-08:00

SHENICE values close, personal relationships, and she will often put the needs and desires of those who are loyal friends ahead of her own needs. She is an even-paced individual who thrives in a peaceful, harmonious environment.
SHENICE will work to avoid conflict and sudden changes in her lifestyle and finds joy in keeping tradition.

Neat and orderly, others usually see SHENICE as practical. She needs adequate information to make decisions, and she will consider the pros and cons. She may be sensitive to criticism, and will tend to internalize her emotions. SHENICE likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, and she will follow a logical process to gain successful results.

A warm, outgoing person, SHENICE enjoys having a high level of interaction with others. She usually finds the "silver lining" in a difficult situation, and typically enjoys the thrill of trying new things. She has a gift for influencing those around her and is viewed as an instinctive communicator. Others find SHENICE easy to approach and enjoy her easy, open rapport.

SHENICE would prefer things stay the same, rather than to risk a new venture (unless it is proven and true). She is typically peaceful and low key, and is usually seen by those around her as a good friend and listener. She tends to adopt a "wait and see" attitude about things, rather than taking charge of a situation, usually preferring to let others take the lead.

SHENICE's Keys to Motivation:

Brief Description of your Style:

Advocates are steady, sociable individuals who strive for positive relationships at work and at home. They can be very detail oriented, and they tend toward individualism and independence. It is difficult to change this person’s mind once it is made up. They like people and tend to support the underdog. They may take opposing sides of a disagreement and feel frustrated if things do not go their way. Advocates need to be accepted as part of the team, and they want people to like them. Decisions are difficult for them to make unless their parameters of authority are clearly defined. They tend to be moderate, thorough and dependable. Advocates do not like conflict and rather than create conflict in a group, they will let others do what they want. They are not ones to confront people unless necessary. They are inspiring and also have attention to tasks that need completed. They have respect for leaders and are quality and service minded. Advocates are people oriented, but can be detail and task oriented as well. They are motivated through joint collaboration and like to work in groups. Advocates do not tend to be argumentative, but will hold grudges if situations are left unresolved. This tends to happen due to their fear of confrontation. They may have difficulty being honest about things if there is a fear that there will be devastating effects to a relationship. Advocates make decisions based on facts as opposed to feelings. Advocates are usually seen as humble and thoughtful people.

MOTIVATING GOALS: Acceptance from others.

EVALUATES OTHERS BY: Loyalty, tolerance, inclusion.

INFLUENCES OTHERS BY: By offering understanding, friendship.

VALUE TO TEAM: Supports, empathizes, is service oriented.

REACTION TO PRESSURE: Becomes persuasive through key relationships or information.

GREATEST FEARS: Loss of security, criticism, conflict.

AREAS FOR IMPROVEMENT: Develop strength in self awareness, firmness, and self assertion

SHENICE's Strengths in Leadership:

INFLUENCING

Leading and influencing others is something that comes easier for others, but you are willing to step up to the role when no one else volunteers. You prefer an association with a strong leader who has the same goals and values that you do.

DIRECTING

You understand that directing others and doing what needs to be done to hit deadlines is important. You find ways to make sure this is part of your routine, although you do not consider it your primary strength.

PROCESSING

You are invaluable in your ability to take an idea and make a workable model around the concept. You like to be hands on, and you are great at following through and finishing strong the tasks you undertake. You are a loyal team player who shares recognition with other members of the team.

DETAILING

Others appreciate it when you take the time to make sure the little things get done. You may have a tendency to start at a quick pace but not complete the task. So, remember the necessity of the paperwork, and you will add to your other stronger traits

CREATING

You like to use your creativity to perfect basic concepts that other team members develop. You can oversee and help keep accountability in areas that others may compromise.

PERSISTING

Others like working together with you because you typically do more than your share of whatever is required, and this makes the entire team look good. You will maintain a hands-on approach and let others visibly see that you are a team player.

RELATING

You are a great encourager, but you also are willing to take the hand of a teammate and stand beside that friend. Your optimism and loyalty in personal relationships makes you loved by many. You strive to maintain a friendly and secure environment for yourself and those around you.

SHENICE, as an Advocate, is a steady, sociable individual who strives for positive relationships at work and at home. She can be very detail oriented, and she tends toward individualism and independence. SHENICE may find it difficult to change her mind once it is made up. She likes people and tends to support the underdog. SHENICE may take opposing sides of a disagreement and feel frustrated if things do not go her way. She needs to be accepted as part of the team, and she wants people to like her. Decisions are sometimes difficult for her to make unless her parameters of authority are clearly defined. SHENICE tends to be moderate, thorough and dependable.
SHENICE does not like conflict; rather than create conflict in a group, she may tend to let others do what they want. She prefers not to confront people unless absolutely necessary. She is inspiring, and is considered to be supportive by those close to her. She has the ability to focus her attention on tasks that need to be completed, and to work them until they have been finished. SHENICE displays respect for leaders, and is quality and service minded. She is people oriented, but can be detail and task oriented as well when the situation requires it. She is motivated through joint collaboration and likes to work in groups.
SHENICE does not tend to be argumentative, but will hold grudges if situations are left unresolved. This tends to happen due to her fear of confrontation. She may have difficulty being honest about things if there is a fear that there will be devastating effects to a relationship. SHENICE prefers to make decisions based on facts as opposed to feelings. She is usually seen as a humble and thoughtful person.
Your S, C and I plotted above the midline, your style is identified by the keyword "Advocate".
General Characteristics

· Steady; reliable; loyal
· Relational; team and family oriented
· "Do things right the first time"
· Enthusiastic; optimistic; practical

Value To Team

· Steady, hard worker; analytical
· "Hands on" manager
· Motivates others to achieve by aiding and assisting
· Good leader if parameters are clearly defined
· Very relational and approachable

Possible Weaknesses

· When stressed, may tend to do things "by the book" rather than take a risk
· Internal conflict between responsibilities and social time
· May overly internalize or slow decision making down
· Sensitive to criticism

Greatest Fear

· Criticism; loss of security

Motivated by

· Sincere appreciation and acceptance
· A friendly environment
· Ability to have a balance between work and play
· Clear definition of role and expectations

My Ideal Environment

· Knowing what is expected
· Clearly defined goals and parameters
· Ability to work in teams and groups
· A forum to express ideas
· Group activities in professional and social environments

Remember, an Advocate may want:

· Social acceptance in a friendly and non-critical arena, clear definition of what is expected, people to talk to, positive working conditions, recognition for abilities, clearly defined parameters in which to lead or direct others

When communicating with an Advocate, DO:

· Build a favorable, friendly environment
· Give opportunity for them to verbalize about ideas, people and their intuition
· Give adequate information for informed decisions
· Share testimonials from others relating to proposed ideas
· Allow time sociable activities and friendships
· Develop a team atmosphere
· Develop a participative relationship
· Create incentives for their quality work

When communicating with an Advocate, DON'T:

· Be overly aggressive
· Make them harshly discipline peers
· Threaten their sense of security
· Be overly critical

While analyzing information, an Advocate may:

· Take extra time making sure they make the right choice
· Need more details and information
· Want to know exactly what the expected goals and results are
· Be creative in developing a process

Advocates possess these positive characteristics in teams:

· Strong commitment
· Participative managers – influence and inspire
· Good team player
· High quality of work
· Very relational
· Create an atmosphere of well-being
· Enthusiastic
· Provide direction and leadership
· Express ideas well
· Work well with other people
· Good at developing an efficient process
· Have a positive attitude
· Accomplish goals through people
· Good sense of humor
· Accepting of others

Personal Growth Areas for Advocates:

· Be open and participative
· Believe in yourself and your leadership abilities
· Delegate more
· Don't feel guilty for rewarding yourself with social time
· Do not take criticism personally
· Stand up to those with more dominant personalities when necessary
· May be overly protective of relationships

2010-02-09T08:21:00.003-08:00

Happy New Year 2010
another year pass in a blink and i have yet to grow up hais
anyway last year suppose to be my worst year compare to those that i'm still studies of course,however i learn more things and met my darling friends hope no matter what i'm doing i could continue making more great memories as well as worth to be friend,,,i really appreciate my friendship with them and hope it will last forever haha for Joseph just hope he stop growing and also stop dropping hair-.-but keep his healthy fatness cause it make him cuter just like a black fur ball wahahah!!!! in conclusion i think the happiness lf working was that i get to buy luxury but with my hard earn money however it was fun working with those idiotic colleague which always get to play the "hippopotamus game" secretly tell you i didn't really know how to spell it too wahaha (shhhhh~not so loud Y.Y) yup i cheated their feeling but i guess it's all right they will forgive me cause they love me so much zzzz here the retarded "zi lian" photo for you haha

honestly i just couldn't stop taking photos especially i just finish shopping for my new year clothes and i was so deeply in love with them that they already not NEW-i wore them all already sigh i guess i had to lead a happy OLD year barh zzz anyway i love my life now as i had say for million times with no reason sigh as you can see in the above photo already had 3 dresses

purple dress
blue vintage dress
black silk dress
cotton on Men shirt (for fun o.O)
a white short
black top

yup that's all actually i consider those quite little le but mum just wasn't very happy about my new logo (1shirt per day) sigh and among all guess which was the most exp one?

The Cotton On Shirt !!!
(FOR FUN some more Zzz)

doesn't really how my brain works also sigh anyway specially thanks to PRIYA for sacrificial her day to shopping with miss pathertic who had no time to buy till recently sigh luckily i do brought things that i LOVE LOVE LOVE so much hope i wear if can everyday hais,except for that i also brought

white high heel(wihich cause my blister)
Charlie and Keith Black bag
New contact lens
Bb cream (work wonders!!!)
Sasa Mascara
Eye liner
sliming product
fake eye lashes
and more coming up^-^

mum was very evil she know that i hate copy cat and she purposly brought Charles and Keith bag just to kill me from anger!!!i shout off my head when she told me CB~i told her that i going buy a LV bag just to win her out dated Bonia and of course just joking about it as if i had the ability lo-.-went for supper with cindy and rong at cinelesiure HONG KONG CAFE? as always for chatting love the dessert there after that those two still complain hungry so we when for McDonald ooh by the way i just notice the McDonald there was so cute they doesn't had kitchen so they send the food from heaven-.-what a great idea haha i hope my house had this service so if i hungry they will drop fried fish noodle soup from above=) but then again it might me dangerous for me if i order durian haha LAME....ooh yesterday went back store to meet them cause rong wanted to shop for clothes but you know what instead of she buying we are the one who spending WTF anyway i wore the purple dress so that why we will had those photo above i got complain that it look like queen pyjama cause they say the black one was for normal ppl sigh~ but i still love it la although i feel Little bit uncomfortable due to too OPEN but i thought woman should be confidence on the right things!!!!LOVE LOVE LOVE the matcha amisu in our shop taste heaven cause they treat me with something in replace sigh gotten lots of KFC on sat night cause a generous customer tip over $100above so they brought us KFC haha school was tiring but some sort fun we learn cuticle work today at least now i was fine with massage facial and filling and for nail polishing hope it improve more over the holiday hais

cindy call just now she mention about him getting hair cut and dye looking very handsome,and i feeling very jealous about nothing just unhappy about hearing others talking about him or something that he had done with others,somtimes i really wonders among so many people why do i have chemitry with him?neither the worst or the best,neither do he talk alot with me and no matter what others say i care more about what he say!however i did notice that it impossible due to many reason that we could had a might but i guess it wasn't a wrong to have feeling for one another right?it's okay to remain this ways as long as i still see him is fine for me as long as we chat and laugh for very stupid things even if he do it with anyone else the same things and cindy look at me with a "did you saw that" face is fine also cause i doesn't had a right to say anything all i could do was smile like a idiot for nothings,i feel that THIS me was stupidly retarded idiot which mean extra extra useless,i feel helpless thought i know letting go will free everything but soon again for in another deep hole so getting use was the only method...sometime i really wonder what should i do to make him notice?but so what if he does i'm afraid to know him more or letting him know more about me cause you should know i'm more than 1 single souls and he was just a normal person who will sure had flaw and i'm not sure that either of us could accpect it and most of all we are in a stituation of ...full stop!!!! that's all not going to think too much about it cause he doesn't concern anything as well!

非主流照片

2010-02-01T06:51:00.000-08:00

有人说照片能说话果真没骗人，最近的我有点忙有点累了但因为是自己选的路所以说什么都要撑下去=] 好想有一天也能拍到这样的照片哦！有时在想如果我不是住在这里的我不是大家所认识的我那我的生活会是这么样的？如果我做的一个选择会改变一切是否会后悔？曾经为了大家认为很重要的东西而奋斗而哭泣的我是否很傻？或许有人会说人因该面对现实但我认为方法有很多种不一定要和别人一样啦！我不喜欢去勉强自己接受那些自己不喜欢的东西因为如果连自己都不疼自己的话幸福不会找上那些连自己要什么都不知道的人。。。对于心也处于平静的地带，没空去想太多过去也都已经是过去了对我都已经没意义因为已经没感觉不大记得了。新年要到了我还没空去买衣服但差不多自导要买这样的衣服了，高跟鞋还在想，化妆品太重要了早就买好了！不知今年会回去吗？又要大开杀戒了哈哈虽然上一年我输了有史以来最多的.....＄20 但问题不在钱我的心灵受到严重打击今年要赢回来！哈哈就这样要睡了明天还有课等下爬不起来就死到很难看老师又要威胁我了....(叹气~_~)

extre update

2010-01-26T16:12:00.000-08:00

having food allegiance this two days,very bored...i wanted attend school but mum say it's better to rest for another day hope teacher won't kill me for this...anyway it really been a hard time for me not to scratch and i had to cut off my nails,partly for this reason too.went Malaysia that day with cindy,having a great time singing thought we are some kind of broke didn't had enough money to buy everything as plan cause we ate a meal at king sushi about 100++ i hate Japanese food like always except for those cooked one ^^ the karaoke session was cheap plus they provide dinner buffet,we almost bust from those singing after having a heavy meal haha can't sing properly so it sound horrible-.-btw i'm quite into wearing shirt now at least it look presentable to me thought it's for guy zzz plan to buy one myself for new year,thinking of doing lot's things to my hair but guess got to delay till new year.sometime people just don't appear the way they look sigh~one sided love wasn't at fault since it take two hand to clap,this few week been very weird and unbalance,i'm not use to my life now,somehow found it quite stressful and unhappy even he find it too sigh~even though i'm happy he notice that but since it doesn't prove anything haha,till that day we went Malaysia i almost forget what does fun mend to be,i need to resolve all the stress as soon as possible it make me feel there a anger in my inner and without notice i been taking it out on anyone,if i wasn't such a open book guess it would be better but i can't control emotion...people that i get to know now was so much different from what i know at work and i don't think i could mix in well as far as i could see,maybe i haven't try yet barh honestly i don't know what really went wrong when everything seem right! okay that's all easy scratch off,don't think too much,just follow the flow...priya favourite phrase haha :)

random update with pic

2010-01-22T17:25:00.000-08:00

yeay finally my internet could once work-.- i'm quite piss with M1 hotline service as well as tampines retail one cause for the call i had to wait for half an hour till someone pick up while keep hearing the repeat record voice >( and also for the shop whatever we want they call us to settle at their paragon chain shop which i guess they expect us to carry the heavy stuff all the way just for checkup zzz they might as well close down all the shop except the one at paragon!! anyway nothing much happened within this month except i eat a lot gain weight and also grow tall 1cm hehe ooh btw i got in beauty therapy in the end wahaha all my friend when hear this good news of mine say that the examine was blind zzz what the hell -.- hope i don't regret with my own choice till now so far so good lo at least priya curse doesn't had much power haha some emotional feeling to control these days for adapting changes on my studies + working life,btw the course was more professional than i could imagine and why do they must be so strict that i almost had to go botak sigh~thinking of chopping off my hair!!! new year coming got to buck up with dieting~got to chop off my nails soon or later zzz DON"T WANT but no choice-.- that's all for everything waiting for my pay now to buy makeup & contact lens and hopefully got a laptop!!! wahaha^_^ btw Joseph still alive xP

Merry X*mas ^9^

2009-12-28T04:56:00.000-08:00

merry x*mas another year going passed soon...i'm getting older sigh anyway this year x*mas eve spend with sindy and rong xiu at east coast park after work and in the x*mas that day went to marina square watch Sherlock homes with priya it was a great movie "of course i choose one wahahaha"
i passed my interview hooray~ life getting busier when school starts since i decided or forced to continue my job while studying hope i don't die early hais anyway i'm really happy that i got in thought that mean byebye to my pay but we always need to sacrifice for better life isn't it-.-
i took alot of picture just to heal my pain from my birthday sigh at least it turn out okay barh i guess zzz my skill of taking photo with others still suck as always either on of us will get half cut in the middle haha
i need to save all my money from this month hardworking pay just to pay the school fees plus additional stuff guess i might not be able to buy my own valo laptop thought it's not like i doesn't had computer at home so i guess it should be all right...for the meantime -.- i'm glad i had my own job sigh
cousin april not coming this holiday anymore cause i didn't manage to find time for her so she say it's okay to come on next holiday,i feel quite upset about this cause she plan this for months and also it's been always that i love her accompany even thought we don't always get see each other but now we had to accept both of us had our own life and had grow up can't be a irresponsible childish little girl anymore sigh
i didn't even manage to find time for Joseph but i still feeding him always,he look the same but stomach getting fatter zzz sometime i really think that calling him fluffy black ball will be a better choose haha and do i had to forgive him for everything that he done to me just because he's cute?or should i do that cause mommy didn't had time to teach him manner-.-
having slightly throat pain now it's too dry wonder isn't because the x-ray or the injection?or just because i didn't take good care of my body?okay that's all for the post,update soon if i had time=)

Merry Birthday 2009

2009-12-17T04:45:00.000-08:00

Happy B*day to me
2009
my 18th birthday present from mummy=)

it's been few days since my 18 or 19 birthday,on that day i had to work the whole day using out all my energy however the day before we already celebrate it!!!guess what my present from priya?

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A Netherlands dwarf rabbit !!!

meet my precious Joseph baby it's a boy ^^ isn't it cute? priya was his god mother thought dad say i'm too young to had a child WTF!!! anyway at first he was so reject Joseph but now everyone love him due to his adorable hais he had such a good life that his mummy had to work like hell for his basic necessary tools and had to clean his shitty house went to get home tiredly!!!but due to his cuteness i'll forgive him for everything except for peeling on me -.-hope he stop doing that!!!baby mummy love you....muack!!! ooh and million thanks to priya for this god given baby =)

the day before my birthday Cindy and i went to Malaysia to celebrate my birthday,as my present she insist pay for the food,ktv and also a birthday cake cause she say she don't know what to give me,btw she wanted to give me a surprise in the ktv when the cake arrive however i'm too smart to fall for it cause it's so old tactics lol haha but i'm till happy that she had the heart to celebrate for me even though i break her heart the perviors day =( honestly i'm happy enough just going Malaysia with her for food and ktv,maybe i doesn't had a thing for cake they always make me feel so lonely sigh! after everything i suddenly realise that i didn't take any photo except the one with the cake haha!!!

ooh and yesterday 2 of my colleague who birthday on DEC had they birthday party...this was the cake that they sell at the shop isn't it nice?it was tasty too the inner was strawberry favor hehehee delicious =)

mixed update

2009-12-08T05:50:00.000-08:00

hmm hope my picture won't turn out too big for my blog anyway it's weird seeing your feet while typing it seem to shut down my thinking system,anyway those pic of the food been taken for awhile couldn't post up due to missing of EX- handphone,ooh meet my beloved yangyang who let me believe of love @ first sight and it's still the best among all my darlings...when to priya friend- jane's sis wedding,i been her extra bf for 1 day haha,it was a rare experience since it's my first time attend malay marriage...the place was beautiful fill with flower and the food was spicy delicious,the couple was wearing white and gold costume guess white was the best color for every custom wedding !!! though after that my feet got bluster attack-.- i'm feeling sad cause it seem that this year birthday i won't be able to celebrate with anyone,sigh guess it wasn't a big deal since i'm currently very broke too.i should be glad that i didn't plan anything if not i'll cry for few days...btw the reason was because i had to work for blood the whole day and the worst was i started on the day itself as well as priya holiday will start at the next day so i couldn't enjoy playing with her sigh,however i think i had rested enough it's time to go for money hunting!!! just afraid that the intake will crush with work and also facing my colleague which i always had to answer question that i doesn't want to face,hope everything working fine for me barh for birthday wishes!!! and also could take off on the day of christmas since i promise priya to celebrate with her^0^

EXTRA:self talking part (boring stuff!!)
i wanted go traveling though i might sound extremely foolish,i like traveling more than actual staying might because of the feeling=) maybe i should take tourism but i totally suck in explaining thing to others however i always use my way to let them know the meaning!!! mummy say that my thinking was mature when i was serious though most of the time i acted like a child,we always learn things from mistake no matter from others or our self.i don't think i could be mature for every things but indeed i had grownup quite alot from a girl who always break every things that she touch to a teenage who doesn't except technology items=.=' i really wonder what's the feeling of seeing the changes of life from a kid to adult,though i'm sure i'll had the opportunity to see it with my own eyes so it only depend on the times...it was such a miracle for sudden notice that those who still remain a kid forever in memories already grownup and it will also be the time that we notice how many year had actually past as well as start thinking about the past! people always say when you are young,one always wanted to grownup however when you are old you will hoping so much that youth will come back! so that's why live without regret and treasure what you had was the most important things now...i wonder living in this real world consider a good thing?it was always too small to keep dreams big,everything had it pros and cons that's make it difficulty to decide which step was most safe,why was it a must to give up something to achieve higher grade?i guess wanting everything from the beginning it's already a mistake!!!

New Blogskin

2009-12-04T02:09:00.000-08:00

i really like my blogskin now,it seem like what heaven would be like....anyway it's jae joong with glasses up there he really look smart in that photo,meeting priya later just awhile thought i haven bath yet-.-cold weather really lead to laziness,i had always like light baby colour^.^ they look so soft and comfortable,it would be a random post cause i had no pic to post as well as nothing to talk about-.-except for I WANT DESSERT!!!SWEET STUFF PLS!!! argh i'm a idiot...feeling very down due to some personal matter sigh my weight keep gaining & i couldn't stop eating (v_v') sigh!!! (T.T')i got to broke my promise to myself that i'll slim before i reach 18 but only 1 week till that,even i stop eating & tie myself whole day it wouldn.t work anyway (maybe i should change to next year? NO!!!)new year is coming mum going to hunt me for blood if i never slim before it thought she was the one who always offer me food & stuff!!! ahhhhhhh~ i wan slim down la i wan play closplay x( sigh what to do?

April Perform at mediacorp

2009-12-02T03:33:00.000-08:00

went to watch my cousin with nee last Saturday,she really did a great job,was really proud of her for all her hard work,she suppose to be jolin tsai however everyone think she look more like lady gaga haha...all because of her white wig hehe anyway we had to meet them 11am at woodland so her aunt could take us along,then spend our entire day till 9pm at the studio,it was the first time i could go in the back stage,ooh we went to the makeup room too and saw few idol.though i hope i will saw jiro,show or xiao jing teng haha =.= make a BIG mistake on the way home so end up at woodland checkpoint for taking WRONG bus (the officer think we are very suspicious and keep questioning us due to our stupid but true reason sigh! i miss MOMO LOVE last chapter for that,didn't regret going however might not go again next time cause i'm sick of waiting everything sigh~ finally my birthday will be next week honestly i thought i'll be very excited however it turn out wasn't exactly this way hmm i think it will be just another normal day ba since i'm use to simple life hais anyway i remake my blogskin does it look better?actually i wanted make it pinky sweet however i couldn't leave out vintage therefore everything turn out vintage sweet haha and actually i wanted to put the a some icon of my friend on its link but it will be very tough since i had to make every photo the same size and also must choose their photo so in the end i give up!!!i didn't look very nice on that day for the perform so i'm not going to post the photo (yeap over my dead maggot body wahaha) that day the contact len i'm wearing had shape pain so i keep changing it till my eyes makeup gone sigh had to buy new contact len lo...i'll update again after my birthday hope i take enough photo to post (sweet smile ^^)